i just wanna spend my life with you.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
let me know if you hear me, if you want to be near let me know. and i'll never let you go . love , when you ask what i feel i say love when you ask how i know i say trust . and if that's not enough it's every little thing you do. that makes me feel and fall in love with you. maybe there isn't a way i can show it to you ever since i've fall for you. it's every little thing you say that makes me feel this way there's not a thing that i can point to cause its every little thing you do. let's just feel what we feel cause sometimes it's the secret that keeps it alive but if you need a reason why, its your smile your laugh your heart your thoughts your understanding your careness your love. why i can't let go let me explain to you, that every little dreams comes true with every thing you do everything you are. it's everything you do everything. i'll be loving you forever my true love deep inside my heary you'll leave me never even if you took my heart and tore it into a million pieces i would still love you forever. your my sun my light . the last thing on my mind be4 i go to sleep at night. you're always around when im in need when trouble's on my mind your the one who puts my soul to ease. there's no one in this world who can and will love me like you do. we've had our fun we've made mistakes but who'd to guessed along that road. we give and take. your so much more than i could i dreamt. i pray that you'll never leave me cause this is the world where lovers often go astray but if we love each other we wont go that way so put doubts aside do what it takes to make it right no one can tear us apart. can't believe its over that you're leaving weren't we meant to be? should've sensed the danger read the warnings right there in front of me but i was blind . i wish we could just stop let's start over couldn't we get one more try? maybe tomorrow you'll say that you're mine . you'll realize i could change i'm gonna show you i'm in it for life! i'll get you back someday maybe tomorrow. i forgot to be there i was selfish i can see that now. i've should've held you when your tears fell down. just stop . doesn't it hurt seeing me beg? tell me that you'll stay wait a minute just to hear me out. turn around now your heart can't do what it takes can't let you walk away i'll do what it takes. there's so much i wanna say now i just wanna make a life with you,don't walk away. there's so much i wanna do now.
i dont know how to start writing im stunned im empty . whats wrong baby whats wrong. whats holding you back? you know i forgived you right? i just want you backk. mistakes happens i wasnt around when it happen i was in ns. i blame myself for being there =\ its all my fault for whats going on now till you have doubts. when you walked away i knew you were leaving me. why baby why? why cant we sort things out? why cant things be the same? today wasnt a good day for me. stop pushing me away, pull be back . i feel terribly insecure as you kept pushing me away. nothing went right today. i couldnt eat couldnt sleep couldnt do anything. all i had in mind is you. right now right here. you replied me few mins ago and then you disappeared again =\ but before that you ignored me for about 5 hours. ill be patiently waiting here for you no matter how long it takes no matter how things are. we know we can fix things . its the matter we want to or not. where ever i was whatever i do, all i had in mind is you. you and you alone. thinking and thinking. i know you want space you want your freedom you want everything to be okay. im worried about you and im giving you what you want and how you want it. you want time i give you that. you rather believe in your friends and not me. its okay. i had a terrible past and yeah gossips goes on although its normal convo with a girl/guy . but the fact that your walking away from me kills me sayang . frankly i cant take it that your walking away from me. do you still love me? im dying to hear those three words from you. where is it baby where is it? your constantly here then gone. i can barely walk. im weak. weaker than you think. im still avoiding my medications. i know i have to take it as i can pass out anytime. im sorry if you get mad hearing this. today i bought crocs . the sandals reminds me of you everytime the colours the wordings . baby i miss you do come back home into my arms. i miss your sweet morning texts your voice your kisses your hugs . the way you ask for bear hug and hug me so tightly never gonna let go. i broke down few times today. im sorry im not strong enough i guess i'll never be when your not here with me. when i asked you are you gonna take care of me? you didnt reply. where are you baby. why are you missing. im gonna wait for you. but your gonna scold me for being a vamp. im awake cause i wanna get your reply i wanna be there to reply you. i seriously honestly miss you.
see the sandals? the colour is mcd. stands for you and me . teddy reminds me of you . and our starting alphabets on the other side with mine the superman S. i miss you baby come back .
ps michelle lee aka babyku i love you
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Friday, September 17, 2010
i lie awake here again . bodies feeling paralysed. yes im sleepy but i dont wanna sleep. im hopelessly waiting for you to text me but i know its not gonna happen. like hello look at the bloody time its 3.57 am! giving myself false hope to put the smile on me. no goodnight text not a single word from you. what does this mean? anyone out there to answer this?? i know your having hard times i know your difficult like your gasping for air but there's hardly. please let the past go. i know its hard. i've been there i know how it feels but if you dont let go , we wont get a smooth relationship. let it go. learn from mistakes like how i did. be a better person. you know im gonna tolerate you no matter how or what right. i love you so damn much do you know that. i'm patiently waiting here for you i might not text you or call you or anything else.but i think deep inside you , you know im waiting. arguements is what im gonna avoid. i think of you all the time. even when i was out with justin then julia. i dont show it but i know it. hmm. i pray that your okay and getting stronger. i suppose your gonna say that you dont know how to face me or speak to me. after whats been in your head. but baby , you forgived me be4 and i vowed not to do it again , so i promised you. now its your turn. it was hard to accept and forgive but i had to simple enough because i love you. i really do. who's gonna love me like you do if you walk away from me? would i continue living ? or should i fml when your gone? i pray that tmr is a better day ahead. there's nothing more i can say for now .goodbye but not goodnight yet. but to michelle lee. goodnight sweetest dreams. love you loads.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
i dont know whats wrong with myself. i know im weird. i know im quiet. i know im different. lets say im just not normal. im sitting here thinking about youu. thinking bout how im gonna do without you in my life and how i would be. i think i wont get by . aint go any days. just lonely nights . infact girl i wont be alright and feel outta place and outta time. i think im gonna lose my mind. babyy, do you dream of me at night? like how i dream of you all the time. i miss your face. i miss your kiss, i even miss the arguements thata we have from time to time. i miss you standing by my side. there isn't you god knows there isn't me. you know when im lonesome and cries when we're sad. up in the good times and down in the bad. whenever im discouraged , she just knows what to do. michelle lee honey bear =) i miss youuu
Sunday, September 05, 2010
Thursday, September 02, 2010
"Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it. (Curtis Judalet)"
im lazy to blog =X haha. im sleepy yawn. at work and its freaking boring. can i quit? yes no? dunno? hmm.