i just wanna spend my life with you.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
let me know if you hear me, if you want to be near let me know. and i'll never let you go . love , when you ask what i feel i say love when you ask how i know i say trust . and if that's not enough it's every little thing you do. that makes me feel and fall in love with you. maybe there isn't a way i can show it to you ever since i've fall for you. it's every little thing you say that makes me feel this way there's not a thing that i can point to cause its every little thing you do. let's just feel what we feel cause sometimes it's the secret that keeps it alive but if you need a reason why, its your smile your laugh your heart your thoughts your understanding your careness your love. why i can't let go let me explain to you, that every little dreams comes true with every thing you do everything you are. it's everything you do everything. i'll be loving you forever my true love deep inside my heary you'll leave me never even if you took my heart and tore it into a million pieces i would still love you forever. your my sun my light . the last thing on my mind be4 i go to sleep at night. you're always around when im in need when trouble's on my mind your the one who puts my soul to ease. there's no one in this world who can and will love me like you do. we've had our fun we've made mistakes but who'd to guessed along that road. we give and take. your so much more than i could i dreamt. i pray that you'll never leave me cause this is the world where lovers often go astray but if we love each other we wont go that way so put doubts aside do what it takes to make it right no one can tear us apart. can't believe its over that you're leaving weren't we meant to be? should've sensed the danger read the warnings right there in front of me but i was blind . i wish we could just stop let's start over couldn't we get one more try? maybe tomorrow you'll say that you're mine . you'll realize i could change i'm gonna show you i'm in it for life! i'll get you back someday maybe tomorrow. i forgot to be there i was selfish i can see that now. i've should've held you when your tears fell down. just stop . doesn't it hurt seeing me beg? tell me that you'll stay wait a minute just to hear me out. turn around now your heart can't do what it takes can't let you walk away i'll do what it takes. there's so much i wanna say now i just wanna make a life with you,don't walk away. there's so much i wanna do now.
i dont know how to start writing im stunned im empty . whats wrong baby whats wrong. whats holding you back? you know i forgived you right? i just want you backk. mistakes happens i wasnt around when it happen i was in ns. i blame myself for being there =\ its all my fault for whats going on now till you have doubts. when you walked away i knew you were leaving me. why baby why? why cant we sort things out? why cant things be the same? today wasnt a good day for me. stop pushing me away, pull be back . i feel terribly insecure as you kept pushing me away. nothing went right today. i couldnt eat couldnt sleep couldnt do anything. all i had in mind is you. right now right here. you replied me few mins ago and then you disappeared again =\ but before that you ignored me for about 5 hours. ill be patiently waiting here for you no matter how long it takes no matter how things are. we know we can fix things . its the matter we want to or not. where ever i was whatever i do, all i had in mind is you. you and you alone. thinking and thinking. i know you want space you want your freedom you want everything to be okay. im worried about you and im giving you what you want and how you want it. you want time i give you that. you rather believe in your friends and not me. its okay. i had a terrible past and yeah gossips goes on although its normal convo with a girl/guy . but the fact that your walking away from me kills me sayang . frankly i cant take it that your walking away from me. do you still love me? im dying to hear those three words from you. where is it baby where is it? your constantly here then gone. i can barely walk. im weak. weaker than you think. im still avoiding my medications. i know i have to take it as i can pass out anytime. im sorry if you get mad hearing this. today i bought crocs . the sandals reminds me of you everytime the colours the wordings . baby i miss you do come back home into my arms. i miss your sweet morning texts your voice your kisses your hugs . the way you ask for bear hug and hug me so tightly never gonna let go. i broke down few times today. im sorry im not strong enough i guess i'll never be when your not here with me. when i asked you are you gonna take care of me? you didnt reply. where are you baby. why are you missing. im gonna wait for you. but your gonna scold me for being a vamp. im awake cause i wanna get your reply i wanna be there to reply you. i seriously honestly miss you.
see the sandals? the colour is mcd. stands for you and me . teddy reminds me of you . and our starting alphabets on the other side with mine the superman S. i miss you baby come back .
ps michelle lee aka babyku i love you