just suddenly had the urged to blog. its been awhile since i did so . so yeah. im so sleepy and im currently at work =\ i feel like a zombie. even worst when im a vampire . damn damn sanfu =\ and im bored plus hungry. hmm. life life life. life isnt turning out the way it is . obstacles are all the way as the future comes.
expect the unexpected. fall down. gather your strength and stand back right up ;)
p/s i miss you baby girl .

hm.

you dont curse infront of me? is that a joke or what. what she texted me? all she said was you said im ignoring you and it gik you. thats all she said. sadly but yeah i didnt see your text. i was too impatient i chucked it on the bed and left my room. yeah friends i suppose huh. say as you wish do as you like. what am i hiding from you??? tell me what am i hiding from you. so hard to say things out to me? what are you actually trying to tell me. be frank ! oh now im treated as a close friend. excellent. not the right time till i find out its something bad then what happens you tell me. yeah describe it the way you like childish then shall be it. ignore then. simply judge or not you know whats going on and i dont . yeah i broke my promise i know . like how you broke promises with me if you notice...

i dont know whats going on

i see your blog but i dont know whats going on. there's like so many things going on in your life which i dont know. your hiding stuffs from me aye . everytime i read your blog its like what she's talking about how come i don't get to figure it out. i see all the posts and i still cant figure out . you promised me not to curse anymore but look even more and more is coming out. i dont know what else i can say. dont use the word yang on me cause its not for me and you know what i mean. im not ignoring you or anything if you think so . your cousin told me your asleep i think as she replied one text with your phone. hmmm . fine i told myself and waited. but then after few hours till dinner time still no reply . great i've chucked my phone at home and im out now. there's no point taking my bloody phone out when there's no use. hmm. i dont know why are you not telling me stuffs and all. yeah i just saw your latest post. i know your gonna be moody for today .and sorry i cant be there for you cause i feel lost reading your post like im not part of your life anymore or something like that. yeah you can call me a MOTHER FUCKER OR IDIOTIC SHIT OR LAME SHIT OR CHILDISH i got my reasons too. im not revenging or anything. you got many ppl to cheer you up or so. me not around doesnt even matter since you can CURSE about me so bloody much. you kept saying FML FML FML you might see i dont give shit . BUT i dont know why your saying so . thats why i rather keep quiet and not ask. cause you've not been telling me anything or updating me willingly. if im suppose to beg and annoy you by asking. thats not how we were suppose to be in this relationship! remember i said no secrets between us??? seems like there is now YANG. maybe its not you supposing to say FML maybe its meant to be mine to say. FUCK MY LIFE! lost in this relationship is just.. WOW excellent!?! HA HA HA. damn it .

i coudlnt sleep , i thought of nothing else , i needed help
everyone was telling me that you've been moving on with someone else
but what we had was so special
i know i've hurt you and you are hurt me still

there's the light in the dark
where the sky splits apart
where the stars finds its way
all i thought is you shining out brightly
to shine in all the spaces in between
and its finally coming down to just you and me
tell me who've you been hiding??
i want to know
tell me what am i feeling?
well well, its hard to explain
you hesitate
who's to say that we'll be okayy.
i just want to see both to smilee
your walking out and i dont know if this can ever be the samee

you got him what nowww......

endless misery

you used to talk to me like i was the only one around..
you used to lean on me like the only other choice was fallin down..
you used to walk with me like we had no where needed to go..
we used to have this under control we never thought we used to know..
i used to reached for you and got lost along the way..
i used to listen you always had the just right thing to say..
this time i wonder what it feels like
cause nobody wants to ever be the last one there..
and feel like someone cares..
someone to love with my life in their hands..
everyone wants to know their not alone.
tonight.. out in the streets , out in the moonlight
it's like a deja vu..
i'll be holding my own breath.. could this be the end??
off in the night while you live it up , im about to sleep..
baby your all that i ever wanted
when your lying here
once in your life you'll find someone there
who drives your world crazy
bring you up when your down
nothing could change what you meant
there was a lot i can say but now.. there's nothing left..
im hearing what you say but there's nothing i can say..
telling me that you needed me, then cutting me down..
but wait..
you tell me that you're sorry..
don't ever tell me your sorry when you're not..