a broken heart cant be that bad when its true , its true.
fate will twist the both of us so come baby come over.
let me be the one to show you.
i'm the one who wants to be with you.
deep inside i know you feel it too.
waited on a line of green and blue
just to be the next to be with you.
build up our confidence to be the top forever.
you can make my life worthwhile
and i can make you start to smile dear michelle (:

things are up and down. currently i know you fear what might happened and all. i do too. i want to reconnect with you . i miss you honey bear i miss you. you know some say love is a hunger , an endless aching need. but i say love is the flower and YOU are the only seed. you say there's so many sorry to be said. but i dont seem to see a reason that you need to do so. the way you spoke to me last night was really sad. another day without your smile. another day just passes by but nothing much changes. and now i know how much it means for you to stay right here with me. i wanna grow old with you. i wanna die lying in your arms. i wanna be looking into your eyes. i wanna be there for you. sharing everything you do. i should have know that i was wrong in everything i do. they say you never miss the water until its gone. i guess i failed to love you the way you like? im sorry for the mess i caused its all by myself, me and me alone. i really do hope you could forgive me. i'll do anything i can anything you want and how you want it to be. i love you. im sorry forgive me. i really wish i could turn back time to where we were so sweet and loving. bear hugs holding hands kisses. i miss you dear. i asked you to decide because its important for you to choose what you want. im not a good boyf. not as perfect as you are. do i deserve your love baby? i hurt you so much. you had so many guys after you which you didnt tell me. i don't know why. why didnt you choose them but still stay with me? i've answered you why i chose you over her. guess its your turn? be true to me . i wanna know the truth . dont need to pity me or all. im sure they treat you better right? im not good enough never will be good enough. sigh i punch wall i drank beer i smoked alot just to forget the pain that makes me think that your leaving me. i miss you so mucch please come back. im sorry for what i did but i know its not enough. i think myself to sleep hoping everyday that passes by it'll be a better day for you and me. i know i messed up and screwed things up but i didnt want it that way all i want was honestly between you and me. and no secrets between i know your afraid to tell me things cause i'm sensitive but if we can live with the way of being honest and nothing between im sure we can be greater than ever and you wouldnt need any of those butterflies around you to make you feel happy. when everyone's getting out of bed im normally getting in it. sigh. but your the greatest thing about me.if it's love and we decide that forever no one else could do it better but us. i love you

i wonder which is better? you trusting them or me? sigh. just kill me would you. it just hurts when you rather trust other ppl. what's left since there's no more trust and believe and just doubts all over? what more can i say or do? atleast now i do know what your level of trust and believe you have in me! when i asked you to tell me about it , you wouldnt't . like wth ! i deserve to know about it. and fight for my rights.. do you want me find out about who and what myself?? you know when i do it ain't gonna sound good then. but fine i'll close one eye like how you do things. things are just not the same. i know im no more chikaboo to you . you can tell it straight to myself . i know your friends and cousin tells you to leave. and its just a matter of time i suppose. i have flaws not as perfect as you . you're wanting to leave but idk whats holding you back. you fake smile and act like nothing is wrong but you cant fool me girl . you never can. i know you well enough to know things isn't right. when you didnt let me clear things up . we know that you are hiding something else also but yet i just kept quiet. things are not the same anymore and there's doubts that it'll be how it use to be. do you love me? you do? you don't? hmm. bet you dont know.

p/s if things like that happened in ns and you rather listen to other ppl and not me, i have nothing better to say . thanks for trusting me. great .

Heartache kills more than a dream.

just gonna stand there and watch me burn

but thats alright cause i like the way it hurts (;

i can't tell you what is really is I only can tell you how if feels

and right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe I can't breathe

but i still fight while i can fight as long as the feels right

it's like i'm in flight high of a love drunk from the hate

wait. where you going i'm not leaving you but are you coming back?

but when it's bad it's awful i feel so ashamed i snap. Who's that dude?

i don't even know his name

you ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe when you're with them

never do nothing to hurt her. Now we're in each other's face spewing venom and these words when we spit them.

it's the rage that took over and control both of us.

So whats the best they say? to go seperate ways.

Guess they don't know cause today is different that was yesterday.

It's a different day.

Now i know we said things. Did things that we didn't mean and we fall back into the same patterns same routine.

Our temper's the same. But when it comes to love. Baby please come back.

it wasn't you baby it was me. maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems.

Maybe thats what happens when tornado meets volcano.

All i know is i love you too much. Told you this is my fault.

I'll aim my fist at the dry wall.

I apologize i'm tired of games I just want you back.

agree with this? i do (: smileeee

wolverine attack?? hmm. ouch? =\

been having hard time falling asleep recently.

With Every Hug & Kiss, You're Snatching Every Bit of Strength, That I'm Gonna Need To Find Off The Inevitable.